i might get free counseling! what is my issue? let's think about it.
i'm having trouble sleeping. i need to take time to simmer down and read a book i guess. do some stretching. get a pillow, put the blanket on. take a hot shower. sounds good.
uh i've always had that issue where i'll think of some past event and cringe and not want to experience the emotion, and i'll swear to myself and swear a lot and try to forget it. some emotions i just want to hide from rather tahn experience them. i get upset at the things i cannot change. saying certain expressions and realizing they are wrong. wishing i could rewrite the tape.
I want to be able to be happy without human interaction. just alone. I don't want my happiness and saneness to lie in someone else's hands. I hate the rollercoaster of emotions with beginning relationships. It makes me uncomfortable. but when I hit a high, it is really high.
what else? can't turn down free cigarettes. gotta remember to pack a snack/lunch. gotta sleep.
