ideas!

A long-time religiously-devout alcoholics anonymous member suffers a painful injury and is prescribed some hydrocodone syrup, a drug he has had long-time engagements with in the past. He suffers from internal conflict and drama in weighing out the benefits and negative but is so stern he refuses to budge, refuses to ever dose himself with such a concoction. He only receives minor support at best from his group and his sponsors and one night, he is in so much pain he prays to god but the pain becomes so severe he goes into shock and dies. somehow it must be subtle yet clear that the syrup would have prevented his death. everything can be fine in moderation, yet he deals in absolutes.

The Chive Farmer's son helps his father with the family chive-farming business but he wants "a bigger piece of the pie". His father is conservative and tells him, "son, your grandpa tried to do that once but I steered him back. this is what we've been doing for so long and we do it the best. it is our family's calling and i expect your support."
son goes behind father's back and attempts to grow another cash crop, Opium. He is successful and tells his father they are a type of Afghani Onion and father believes him. However there are kids from town who hear about the poppies and one night, they milk them all, and it is obvious because they are covered in slits. The father sees this the next night, thinks its vandalism and calls the police. Unfortunately, they are on the son's side of the property, and when the cops investigate they send the son to jail for growing opium poppies.

intro

ive been thinking about learning about believing and knowing that introspection and introspective thought is the most important thing to know
If you can know a man's thoughts, his doubts, his desires, then you know that man, you've captured a piece of his soul
But in the historical and biographical constructs, which typically deal with extroverted events, they they don't place great emphasis on what's going inside the mind. think about what a single tinge of anxiety can do to a great speaker, the multitudes of thought and decisions percolating within the mind can do, what can lead from them. thoughts lead to actions, so they are paths, and many paths can be considered at one time. i imagine a flurry or web of sorts that pan out like a moving map that is constantly reorienting itself, growing or declining, going or ceasing at once; but to actually chart out this map would be as difficult as drawing a map of the internet for the same reasons, constantly flourishing or declining, moving too quickly to be captured in one single image, and if it did, would be immediately obsolete.

anyway, I yearn to modify the introspective experience. I see the soul as a figurative consciousness that can be altered if the pathways to the brain (the seat of consciousness) can also be altered. I am experimenting with Piracetam now. Here is something I've been reading.

I think one reason that the benefits of piracetam in healthy subjects are hard to quantify is due to the nature of the benefits themselves. It's a really subjective thing. How would you quantify beauty or pleasure? If an artist produced more beautiful work after using piracetam, who could document the change? Who could say with scientific certainty exactly how much more beautiful his work became after ingesting the drug for a certain amount of time? How can you weigh creativity? The benefits of piracetam are very subjective but real. For me, what I get is that ideas come to me more readily than before. When I have a tough problem to solve and the usual methods don't work, instead of getting frustrated I may just step back a little and ponder and then two or three possible approaches come to mind, one of which happens to work. My memory seems better and there have been studies showing many memory enhancing benefits from it. It seems to enhance the effects of other drugs slightly.

Other options, if this does not work for me could be Aniracetam or Oxiracetam. I will investigate further.