intro

ive been thinking about learning about believing and knowing that introspection and introspective thought is the most important thing to know
If you can know a man's thoughts, his doubts, his desires, then you know that man, you've captured a piece of his soul
But in the historical and biographical constructs, which typically deal with extroverted events, they they don't place great emphasis on what's going inside the mind. think about what a single tinge of anxiety can do to a great speaker, the multitudes of thought and decisions percolating within the mind can do, what can lead from them. thoughts lead to actions, so they are paths, and many paths can be considered at one time. i imagine a flurry or web of sorts that pan out like a moving map that is constantly reorienting itself, growing or declining, going or ceasing at once; but to actually chart out this map would be as difficult as drawing a map of the internet for the same reasons, constantly flourishing or declining, moving too quickly to be captured in one single image, and if it did, would be immediately obsolete.

anyway, I yearn to modify the introspective experience. I see the soul as a figurative consciousness that can be altered if the pathways to the brain (the seat of consciousness) can also be altered. I am experimenting with Piracetam now. Here is something I've been reading.

I think one reason that the benefits of piracetam in healthy subjects are hard to quantify is due to the nature of the benefits themselves. It's a really subjective thing. How would you quantify beauty or pleasure? If an artist produced more beautiful work after using piracetam, who could document the change? Who could say with scientific certainty exactly how much more beautiful his work became after ingesting the drug for a certain amount of time? How can you weigh creativity? The benefits of piracetam are very subjective but real. For me, what I get is that ideas come to me more readily than before. When I have a tough problem to solve and the usual methods don't work, instead of getting frustrated I may just step back a little and ponder and then two or three possible approaches come to mind, one of which happens to work. My memory seems better and there have been studies showing many memory enhancing benefits from it. It seems to enhance the effects of other drugs slightly.

Other options, if this does not work for me could be Aniracetam or Oxiracetam. I will investigate further.