marcus you can't blame yourself for feeling bent out of shape when girlie hasn't responded yet.
maybe she lost her phone or is uncomfortable using it right now or somethign weird, i dont know
but point is, even if you two don't cultivate anything anew you lived a wonderful passionate experience and it is
truely yours to keep and to hold on to
when we first met i knew that i would at least end up making out with her, the way we greeted and spoke to each
other. it was kind of funny though because Helen was there and i got her number and want to invite her over as well
perhaps a taste of her for next time. but with Claire, the dancing seemed to last so long, and I was having my
doubts but i'm so glad, marcus, that you decided to hang on! you stayed hydrated, took breaks with Steph to smoke,
heh, and did the right things, i'm so proud of you. your dad would be too.
it felt different from having sex it felt like making love, the way we cuddled around the blanket,
naked bodies
pieces touching warmth
again
anew
get up before noon
everything is fine and cool. last night i was hanging out with B and Jason and Vill B and his ex
girlfriend who he is hooking up with, Ida she is cool and i like her has a temporary friend and i bet if
she wasn't having sex with Will I could make it happen, but I have this cool aura of comfort around her knowing
that there's no pressure to make a move and she can smell that confidence. anyway Will whispered in my ear as he
left to check out a sober living community to stay with Ida while Jason was around because he did something dumb
the night before, apparently asking her to kiss him or something poor guy doesn't get it
i'm just glad from all my social blunders i've learned from them, improved myself and now i can safely say i'm the best i've ever been. i think mom would be so proud of me. i miss her a lot it'd be more incentive to come home. calling dad isn't really fulfilling that need of "calling home", tara seems to do a better job. even though he's happy and having a great time it's just kind of a one-sided conversation and that bugs me.
I wish travel this time of the year wasn't so expensive. god damnit but otherwise life is good and its not just because i'm on Tramadol i'm glad i went to the city today im enjoying the cafe
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