constantly throughout the ride

I grasped onto peculiar trains of thought I wish i could reproduce onto this web form. I told myself, think of how you could write this out, this would be great to write about, this is beautiful. BRAIN, I AM TELLING YOU, WHEN I FINALLY GET SOME REST, MEDITATE ON THAT TRIP. PRODUCE SOMETHING FOR ME. I KNOW I'M NOT GIVING YOU ALL THE REST YOU'D LIKE BUT I FEEL LIKE HANGING OUT WITH SOME FRIENDS FOR A BIT WILL GROUND ME MORE. I WOKE UP AGITATED, SICKLY, WEAK. I'M DOING EVERYTHING I CAN. THE GIRL MISSES ME BUT I CAN'T BARE TO FACE HER YET. I CAN'T BARE TO FACE MY NOTEBOOK. PLEASE HELP ME.