today

dim hot and hellish
constantly have to fight off the urges of getting fingernails up in my hairline, fishing for faults and outliers, little smidgens of whatnot hidden up in there must be smitten to ritualistic search and removal. it's sickening and gross and i don't want to have to do it anymore. I must also force myself to shower more often, especially in this weather. I hate being fat.
Constant urge to eat nuts and rabbit food as well when i'm not even hungry. Pisses me off, had a dream with a cool story idea in it but forgot it